THAT MOMENT。。

林于中唱咖啡麻醉不了孤单，李圣杰唱想用一杯latte把你灌醉。。

想说的是，咖啡真的麻醉不了孤单更不能把我灌醉。。

今天真的喝了太多咖啡因了，两杯茶，一杯香浓的咖啡。。真的很浓。。

有一点觉得不舒服的感觉。。

我知道这个感觉。。不过因为需要真的没办法。。。

不喜欢考试的心情。。

真的觉得不舒服。。胃很不舒服。。有点发冷的感觉。。

不敢睡。。因为怕我醒不来。。

怕我真的中毒了。。。读到一篇文章。。如果一天使用多过两克的咖啡因就有可能中毒而死。。

有点害怕我中毒。。不过我都知道喝了过后必须熬过那辛苦的一两个小时就可以。。

觉得最近真的有点不健康。。牙龈流和很多血。。胃时常不舒服。。

我看我真的要吃的健康睡的饱。。哈哈哈。。。不要在喝咖啡了。。

真的对我不好。。

刚才的不舒适，我朋友给我喝了一些胃药。。舒服一点了。。她说她也是一样。。咖啡真的很伤胃。。。感谢神我还活着。。

Don't mess

TIME GOES ON AND ON,
PECULIAR. EVERYTHING TRANSFORMS SO FAST AND I CAN'T IDENTIFY SOME OF IT...
BUT I BELIEVE THERE IS A GOD WHO IS YESTERDAY, TODAY AND TOMORROW THE SAME..MY HEART THAT LOVE GOD WILL NEVER CHANGE..
HECTIC LIFE, CHAOTIC WORLD WHERE EVERYONE FIGHTING SO HARD TO WIN THE BATTLE..
WORLDLY PEOPLE NOT THINKING OF WINNING THE WAR,  BECAUSE THEY FOUND NOT  
ETERNAL..THE WAR I MEANT WAS ETERNAL LIFE...
PEOPLE TRY TO MESS UP EVERYTHING...
MY LIFE SOMEHOW REALLY TOUGH...
BUT I BELIEVE THOSE WHO PRESERVE UNDER TRIALS ARE BLESSED PEOPLE BECAUSE IT IS GOD'S PROMISES...
A QUESTIONS I ASKED TO MYSELF SOMETIMES...
HOW MANY DAYS I LEFT?
THERE IS ALWAYS AN ANSWER TO THIS QUESTION, GOD SAID..MY DEAR CHILD, DO NOT COUNT THE DAYS BUT YOUR BLESSINGS...
YA..I AM BLESSED...VERY  BLESSED...
THERE'RE PROBLEMS AROSE..ONE BY ONE..BUT I JUST GO THROUGH BY GOD'S GRACE AND MERCY...
NO PROBLEM TOO BIG FOR GOD...
THINGS A LITTLE BIT MESS UP..BUT GOD IS ALWAYS THERE TO REMIND...
TOO EXHAUSTED PAST  TWO WEEKS AND LETTING GO EVERYTHING...BACK HOME..
I REALLY THINK ABOUT IT AND SAT DOWN WITH MY BROTHERS AND ENCOURAGEMENT FROM LEE YEN...
EVERYTHING IS FINE NOW...A RIGHT LEADER IS VERY IMPORTANT...
PROUDLY TO TELL TODAY...I AM THE BEST....NO LONGER LOOKING DOWN ON MY OWN ABILITY...HOW PEOPLE LOOK AT ME IS NOT IMPORTANT...BUT HOW GOD SEE ME..THE ONLY THING MATTER..
DON'T MESS WITH THE BEST COS THE BEST DON'T MESS..... :-)

Live to the fullest

I STARTED TO ENJOY LIFE..

NOT BECAUSE SOMEBODY WALKED INTO MY LIFE..HE IS PART OF IT...

BUT I ENJOYED THE TIME IN THE LAB...

ENJOYED THE TIME I SERVE AS A HEAD DEPARTMENT OF SUNDAY SCHOOL..

ENJOYED SINGING AND WORSHIPING GOD...

ENJOYED PREACHING...

ENJOYED MY LAST YEAR IN AIMST..

ENJOYED THE TIME I HAVE REBUILD MY SELF-DISCIPLINE...

I ENJOYED EVERYTHING..

THANK GOD FOR HIS GRACE AND MERCY...

THIS IS REALLY A CHALLENGING YEAR FOR ME...

I LOST 4 IMPORTANT PERSON IN NINE MONTHS...

CLOSE AND RELATED PEOPLE...

BUT THANK GOD..YOU LOVE THEM MORE THAN ME...

I BELIEVE THEY HAVE THEIR REWARDS...

I MISS THEM REALLY A LOT...

BUT THE SAME TIME I AM ENJOYING THE LIFE ON EARTH AND CONTINUE TO RUN THE RACE FOR GOD...

CONTINUE TO SHINE YOUR LIGHT...

CONTINUE TO FIGHT FOR LOST SOUL....

UNTIL THE DAY LORD YOU SAYS...

YOU HAVE FOUGHT THE GOOD FIGHT, YOU HAVE FINISHED THE RACE, YOU HAVE KEPT THE FAITH...AND HERE IS YOUR REWARD....

GOD's presence

COME HOLY SPIRIT,
YES, IT TALKED ABOUT GOD'S PRESENCE..
I ALWAYS TELL GOD..I NEED GOD'S PRESENCE..
I CAN FEEL THE PRESENCE..
EMMANUEL, GOD IS ALWAYS WITH US...
ALL THE TIME...EVERY HOURS, MINUTES AND SECONDS...
GOD IS HERE WITH ME...
I CAN FEEL YOUR PRESENCE..
WHEN EVERY TIME MY HEART BEAT SAID..GOD HELP ME PLEASE...
YOU SHOWED ME THE WAY..
HOW WONDERFUL IT IS..
HOW AMAZING YOU ARE GOD..
MY HEART CAN NEVER COMPREHEND...
CONTINUE LORD TO LEAD ME IN YOUR WAY...

伤透了。。

表面是多么的美，里面是多么的烂。。
表面多么的灿烂，里面是多么的枯干。。
脸上带满了笑容，可知道里面的心在哭泣。。
我真的不知道怎么回答这些问题。。
你的生日你开心吗?
如果我说不开心，我真的对自己很诚实。。
不过在别人的眼里我可是一个不会感恩的人。。
如果我说很开心，我真的对我自己说了一个谎话。。
心理都流着血，眼泪都要往里面收了。。
我真的不知道星期二我是怎么过来的。。
我真的伤透了。。
想要的有时候不是一个祝福的信息。。
想要的是一个能听我说心事一双耳。。
不过都没有。。没关系吧。。
只有这么一天。。
只想说我真的有软弱。。
 这一天里，我想的都是我的爸爸。。
我怎么会有期待要听到你的声音。。。
我也数不到我偷偷得掉眼泪几次。。
我真的不爱哭。。我不爱哭。。。
只有哭能够表达我对你的思念。。
这一年就少了爸爸你。。
真的少了一份爱。。
我睡前只能呼求主你与我同在。。
你的圣灵来做安慰的工作。。。
那么地感谢神，在我软弱的时候。。在我需要安慰的时候你都在。。
可以说你时时刻刻都在。。
你让我看到意象。。也染我明白。。我能依靠的只有你。。
主啊，擦干我的眼泪，刚强我的心。。
我不要几乎每天都有眼泪陪我入睡。。。
主啊。。我不要了。。你帮助我。。。