是时候了。。

我觉得有时候我真的很任性，

明明是听到，我就觉得没有必要。。

圣灵向我说话了，

今天因该是第三次了吧。。。

就有一种感动，

那么的突然，告诉我，我该为我未来的另一半来祷告。。。

觉得有点奇怪，我一点都不心急，我为什么要为这模糊的人祷告。。。

我还很年轻，事实嘛。。

不过今天真的很不一样，

当我一个人走着的时候，上着楼，

就觉得有人对我说，你要为你未来的另一半来祷告，

我还是很执着，我根本就没想过。。。。

我真的不管。。。。

突然有一段的经文出现，

你叩门，我必为你开门。。。。

哇。。

现在不做也不行了。。。

我还没向神祷告呢。。。。

要另一半具备什么条件呢？

很帅？很有钱？

不重要吧。。。

希望他有同一个意象，

有实力，

是一个知道如何给的人.。。。

等一下吧。。等一下我就打电话告诉神。。。其实他都知道的，

不过我还是亲口告诉他吧。。。哈哈哈哈

HALF WAY....

I BOUGHT THE BOOK,

''LIVING WITH CONFIDENT IN A CHAOTIC WORLD''

READING IT...HALF WAY...HALF TO GO...

REALLY LEARNED FROM THE BOOK....

SOMETIMES I MIGHT HEARD HOW MY FRIEND HE OR SHE WANNA ACHIEVED

SOMETHING IN THEIR LIFE,BIG CARS AND HOUSE....

SOMETIMES IT MAKES ME FELT I AM NOT A DREAMER,

BUT I REALIZED MY DREAM MUCH MORE BIGGER,

BECAUSE I AM BUILDING UP THE KINGDOM OF THE HEAVEN.....HAHA....

IN THE BOOK,

IT TAUGHT ME TO STAY CALM WHEN THE STORM ARE RISING,

NO MATTER WHAT GOING AHEAD, WE ALREADY HAVE THE BEST, ETERNAL.......

TO STAY COMPASSIONATE,

YES, THIS WAS WHAT I ALWAYS ASK IN THE PRAYER,

I WAN A HEART OF COMPASSION SO I CAN LOVE OTHERS,

WHAT I CAN DO MIGHT NOT BE GREAT,

BUT START LOVING WILL BE GREAT.

STAY CONSTRUCTIVE,

I AM REALLY AGREE WITH THIS POINT,

LIFE STILL HAVE TO GO ON NO MATTER HOW THE WORLD GOING TO BE,

JUST LIVE THE WAY OF GOD,

AND WE WILL NEVER WRONG,

JUST KNOW THAT WE ARE BUILDING UP OUR FAITH......

FAITH IS THE FOUNDATION OF EVERYTHING....

STAY CHALLENGED,

YES, ALWAYS STAND UP FOR CHRIST,

BY FAITH, WE CAN OVERCOME EVERYTHING,

WHEN THE STORM COMING, I AM NOT GOING TO SOAR WITH IT,

BUT I AM GOING TO SOAR ABOVE THE STORM....

LOVE THE GOD WITH ALL MY HEART.....

WILL CONTINUED READING THE BOOK, TILL FINISH.....

I KNOW IT WILL BE HURTING....

I SAW THE CUTS ON THE ARM....

IT MIGHT BE VERY HURTING TO LEAVE A SCAR...

I SAW WORDS FOLLOWED BY WORDS,

I MIGHT NOT KNOW HOW HURT, HOW PAIN IT IS TO LEAVE A SCAR,

YOU MIGHT THINK THAT IT IS WORTH...

I MINISTER TO A YOUNG GIRL LAST YEAR,

SHE TRIED TO CUT HERSELF,

JUST FOR FUN, SHE TOLD US....

16 CUTS...I REMEMBERED THAT,

AND SHE COUNTED IT FOR US....

SHE WILL NEVER KNOW HOW SAD I FEEL,

I WAS JUST THINKING, OUR BODY IS SO PRECIOUS AND SHE JUST HURT HERSELF SUCH A WAY,

SHE SAID SHE WILL DO IT AGAIN, BECAUSE IT IS FUN....

SOME CUTS WERE JUST TO DEEP THAT SHE HAVE TO PLASTER IT,

TODAY, I SAW THE SCAR AGAIN IN A GIRL ARM,

MAKE ME FELT SHE FELT HURT,

I NEVER KNOW WHAT KIND OF HURT,

BUT FROM THE SCAR IT TELLING ME SOMETHING,

YES,SHE CARRIED HURT...

AND I WAS JUST SO HURT WHEN I SAW THAT,

I FELT THE SORROW WHEN I STARED ON IT,

MAYBE SHE DIDN'T NOTICED I SAW THAT,

BUT HOPE SHE COME OUT FROM THE HURT....

NOT EASY TO CARRY HURT IN LIFE,

IT IS SO HEAVY JUST LIKE CARRYING ROCK ON THE SHOULDER,

OR IT JUST LIKE A ROPE PULLING YOUR LEG WHEN YOU WANNA MOVE FORWARD,

OR IT JUST LIKE A WALL THAT AGAINST YOU TO REACH SOMETHING.....

五颜六色，多姿多彩。。。

我觉得黑白色属于我，

就因着有时周围的人，

他们把我的世界添上颜色，

那我的世界就五颜六色，多姿多彩。。。

也充满了喜乐。。。

两天的‘outing'就这样结束了，

很开心，也更加的认识彼此，

谢谢欣媛和她的家人，把他们的家开放给我们。。。

谢谢每一个都来到的朋友， chun han, kevin, roland, sheng fei, jianzhou, wei boon, soo teing, tyzz mey, qian min,kang yi 和 vincent。

你们都是很棒的朋友。。。

幽默感一流，

也很可爱。。。

哈哈哈哈。。。

这几天就吃啊吃啊，

无法想象我吃了那么多，

冰淇淋，一大堆油腻的食物。。。

哈哈哈哈，不吃真的太没意思了。。。

接下来的日子就要饿肚子了。。。

要不然。。。。心知肚明。。。哈哈哈哈哈

过程

每一个人，

每一样东西，

都经过‘过程’，

才能存在。

生命就是一个过程，

不长也不短，

有喜怒哀乐，

也有起有落，

也不就是一个过程。

昨天跟室友们聊天，

算是安慰他们吧，

人真的都在寻求一个肯定的眼观，

都在追求世界的情欲。

我真的能够明白他们的心，

因为我也是走过那段路的人，

不同的只是面对的心态，

我已乐观的心态来面对。

聊啊聊，

他们觉得对家的责任，

这我也能告诉他们，

我对我家的责任。

真的不容易，

若一个家没有爱，

孩子是多么的苦，

我可以肯定地说，我们让基督做我们家的头，我们家就是爱。。。

说到父母对他们的期望，

我明白父母的心，

不过孩子真的要跟父母坦白，

告诉他们你的感受，你的想法，是爱你的父母真的可以了解。

我也还丢脸哦，

聊到爸爸的时候，我还掉眼泪，搞到他们眼眶也汪汪的。。。

我真的想爸爸了，

谢谢我有一个明白事理的爸爸。

我鼓起勇气问他们我可以为他们祷告吗？

他们既然说可以，

我就为他们祷告啦，

虽然他们不信耶稣不过神说只要你相信，他就会成就。

他们告诉我，

他们很久都没去祈求了，

我就对他们说，我的神就住在我心，

我每天向神祷告就像我跟他讲电话一样。

我真的都一直强调，

基督教不是一个中教，

而是与神的关系，

我们看重的是关系。

我都相信，

活在神的公义，

好怜悯，存谦卑的心，

我的生命是美好的。

KISS..MUACKSSS

A FRIEND OF MINE TOLD ME A STORY,SHE SAID SHE SAW SOMEBODY KISSING IN THE CAR PARK,

SHE SAID SOMEBODY I KNOW,

WHEN SHE SAID SO,I STARTED GUESSING,

WHO?WHO?WHO?

I NEVER THOUGHT OF IS.....WHEN MY FRIEND TOLD ME....

MY FRIEND TOLD ME,THEY KISS FOR A LONG TIME...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA, MY FRIEND SO OBSERVANT HAR....

AIYA,I ALSO WILL SAW THAT IF I STAND AT MY FRIEND'S POSITION....

BUT SOMETIMES KISSING IS NOT GOOD....

THIS IS BASED ON WHAT I LEARNED FROM NO APOLOGISED....

THIS IS A GOOD PROGRAM THAT PREPARE EACH OF EVERYONE OF US BEFORE WE GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP....

CAN A COUPLE KISS?

ANSWER IS YES...BUT DEPENDS ON WHAT YOU HAVE DONE TO THE KISS...

HOLDING HANDS, A WARMTH HUG AND A GO

ODBYE KISS THE LIMITATION FOR A COUPLE,

PLEASE DO NOT KISS FOR TOOOO LONG,

THIS MAKE THE COUPLE LOST CONTROL,

I WAS TAUGHT SO BY PASTOR TOMMY,

AND ALWAYS KNOW HOW TO SAY NO TO THE OPPOSITE SEX,

GUYS ARE MUCH MORE SENSITIVE COMPARE TO GIRLS COS THEIR REPRODUCTIVE ORGAN IS JUST OUTSIDE,

SO TO AVOID ALL THOSE BAD THINGS HAPPEN BEFORE MARRIAGE,

AVOIDING SLEEPING TOGETHER OR STAYING IN A ROOM ONLY BOTH OF THEM,

NO APOLOGISED IS REALLY A GOOD TEACHING TO LET ALL THE TEENAGE AND THOSE UNMARRIED TO ATTEND,

IT IS SO CLEAR THAT THE GAP BETWEEN BOYS AND GIRLS AND WHAT IS THE CONSEQUENCE AND THE PROBLEM WE WILL FACE IN A RELATIONSHIP,

I AM GLAD I ATTENDED IT BEFORE....^^

认同

我觉得这几天我真的觉得很难，

要我认同别人真的有点难，

虽然我没有说出不满，

不代表我认同，

我不认同。

好像都听到乱七八糟的事，

大家真的很有意见，

今天，

我听到更离谱的事，

有人说，

五十年后，我们人会自相藏杀。。。

我的心在笑啊，也在怒啊。。。

为什么呢?

因为人会互相抢食物，

这些事可能就发生在你家门口，

我觉得啊，

我该对那个人说，

我会把我的那份食物给他们吃，

什么话吗？

怎么一点怜悯都没有，

还说要成为一个习惯，

真的要抓来打屁股了。。。。

JUST GIVE ME A DAY

EXAM GONNA OVER SOON,

FELT LIKE BUYING LOTS OF BOOKS TO READ,

MAGAZINES...

WHEN CAN I HAVE A TRIP TO BIG BIG BOOKSTORE?

HAIZZZ.....

THERE IS A FEW BOOKS I WANTED TO READ,

I REALLY LIKE GOING TO BOOKSTORE,

I FELT THERE ARE SO QUIET,

AND NOVELS, SELF IMPROVEMENT BOOKS, SPIRITUALS BOOKS,

ARE SO TEMPTING...

FELT LIKE WANNA BRING THEM HOME,

EVEN MAGAZINES....

REALLY HOPE I HAVE A DAY TO GO...

LET ME SILENT MYSELF THERE,

AND MY FINGER JUST TOUCH AND SEARCH FOR BOOKS...

AMONG ALL BOOKSTORE I HAVE BEEN, I MISS THE BORDERS AT WHEE LOCK

SINGAPORE...IT IS SO NICE...

AND THEIR PUBLIC LIBRARY AT NORTHPOINT...

MIGHT THINK TO SPEND MY COMING HOLIDAY IN JB AND SINGAPORE...

THIS ARE THE BOOKS IN MIND....

COMMUNICATION SKILLS

I ATTENDED THE COURSE FEW DAYS AGO,

REALLY A FANTASTIC COURSE,

I WAS TAUGHT HOW TO COMMUNICATE,

AND HOW TO SEE PEOPLE'S BODY POSTURE, THEIR EYES AND EVEN THE WORDS THEY SPOKE....

FUN FUN....

AND A LOT FUNNY STORY BEHIND THAT ALSO..HAHAHA...

MOSTLY COMMUNICATION BETWEEN MEN AND WOMAN,

WOW, I WAS JUST LAUGHING BEHIND BECAUSE I SAW WHAT PASTOR MARK LEE SAID I N OUR REALITY LIFE....HAHAHAHA.....

WOMAN ARE LIKE SPAGHETTI AND MEN ARE LIKE WAFFLES

多一点点

这几天真的学到很多功课，

使我更看到我存在的意义，

看到这世界的变化，

人随着这世界而改变。

从身边的人学习到很多，

正面和负面，

都教会我，

如何坚持心里的那把火。

这张照片，

是一个人拥有，

也是一个人失去，

拥有是因为那位摄影师得奖，

失去因为那位摄影师失去生命，自杀去了。

那个挨饿的小孩就需要食物，

那只等候的秃鹫等候小孩的死，

看起来很可悲，所以这照片赢了，

不久那个摄影师自杀了，

因为，有人问他，那小孩到最后怎么啦？

看到人是那么的无情，冷漠，毫不关心。。。

可能每一天都为自己的生活而打拼，

却忽略了对别人的责任，

难道爱只是属于自己，

难道爱就是表面上的，

人人都说，这世界很现实，活在世界的人也一样，

若不不现实就不能活，

这句话真的伤透了，

不是不要拥有，

是觉得没有这个必要，

钱真的不是一切，

拥有想拥有的，

而失去应该拥有的，

这就是现实人的损失。

这首‘爱可以再更多一点点’，

我可以拥有全世界却沒有愛  我可以明白所有事却还是空白 我可以用信心移山却還是孤单  這世界沒有了愛 一切仍是黑白 不要埋藏在心裡 把愛說出來  不要默默在一旁 把愛活出來 喔愛 可以在更多一點點  不怕被傷害 把靈魂鎖起來 愛 可以在更多一點點  從天父來的愛 把懼怕挪開 發現幸福在轉角與你相遇  一瞬間 這世界變的好美。。。

这首歌我听了两个多月，

我弟弟说，让我们能够爱多一点点，

让那些爱，不要只爱可爱的，更要是爱不可的，

我们往往只爱那些对我们带来利益的人，

我们忘记那些需要帮助的人，

我可以很肯定的说，我不怕被伤害，

因我选择这伟大的爱，

我相信我的信心，我的坚持，学习怜悯，学习谦卑，

我一定能为不可爱伸出我的手，

喜欢跟爱不一样，

喜欢归于好的而已，

爱是接纳拥抱一切。

只要有爱，这世界会变得好美，

我心的火，会一直的燃烧。。直到我的最后一口气。

LOVING IS NOT NECESSARY LIKING,

ACCEPTANCE IS AN IMPORTANT EXPRESSION OF LOVE.

TOOOO EXCITED..,

I UNABLE TO SLEEP LAST NIGHT,

I WATCH DRAMA SERIES TILL THE CLOCK POINTED

7.15A.M,

THEN I GO PASAR...YAHOOO...

ACTUALLY MY PURPOSE IS LOOK FOR DURIAN,

BUT ALL THE WAY,

I SAW NO DURIAN....

THEN I BOUGHT SOME BREAKFAST FOR MY BROTHER....

BIG PORTION....HUGE AMOUNT

I ALWAYS ASK MY BROTHERS TO DIET,

I WILL SAID, YOU ALREADY VERY FAT,

DUN EAT DY,

BUT I THINK I AM THE CAUSE OF THEIR FATNESS,

BECAUSE I AM THE ONE WHO BOUGHT FOOD.....

THIS IS MY BREAKFAST,

THIS WAS THE MOST EXPENSIVE BREAKFAST I EVER HAD,

I NEVER LIKE TO INVEST IN FOOD FOR MYSELF,

BUT,

I BOUGHT THIS TWO DURI-DURI AT RM36,

I COULDN'T WAIT TO OPEN IT...AND

EAT

SEE THE FLESH,

SEE

SEE

SEE

SEE,WOW...

YUM YUM YUM...

THE TASTE REALLY DELICIOUS,

NICSON SHARED WITH ME,

ACTUALLY I DUN REALLY WANT TO SHARE WITH HIM,

I HOPE I BEING SELFISH,

ARGHHHH,BUT I AM JUST NOT SUITABLE TO BE FISHMONGER,

BUT I DID TELL HIM AND HINTED HIM,

I SAID TO HIM;

''YOU DUN EAT LA,LATER YOU GO SUNDAY SCHOOL,YOU WILL BURP AND VERY SMELLY ,DUN EAT LA,NOT NICE TO SMELL''

JUST AN EXCUSE,

BUT HE DUN CARE,

WANNA SMASHED HIM....

MAKE ME NOT FULL....

I NEVER FELT THIS HUNGRY BEFORE....

SEE,SEE,SEE

HEART SHAPE DURIAN,

REPRESENTING MY HEART,

TASTE GOOD,

SMELL GOOD,

LOOKS GOOD,

HAHAHAHA,

JUST JUST JUST KIDING

I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO DESCRIBE THE TASTINESS,

I TRIED OK?

WHEN YOU HOLD IT,

YOUR FINGER ARE JUST FEEL WARMTH,

AND SALIVARY GLANDS IN MOUTH PRODUCE LOTS OF SALIVA,

GELI LAH YOU NAOMI,

THEN WHEN IT GOES INTO THE MOUTH,

IT TASTE A BIT SWEET SWEET, A BIT BITTER,

THE TEXTURE ARE JUST NOT SOFT,

A BIT STICKY,

NOT TOO DRY AND NOT TOO WET,

TOO NICE,

UNTIL YOU WILL PRODUCE SOUND LIKE...

MMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.....

NOT ME ONLY HOR,

NICSON ALSO HOR.....

HE SO SISSY,

HAHAHAHAHA,JUST KIDING....

星座不可靠

我一路以来都不相信星座，

都是胡说八道。。哈哈哈。。

虽然它把我说到蛮准。。。

不过我发现也有不准的时候。。。

我认识两个男生，两个都是处女座，

都是我的朋友，

两个根本就是不一样的人。。。

第一号男生，

这个男生，怎么说他呢？

很有智慧，就很细心，

观察力强，思想算独立吧，

不容易被看穿，

有责任感，算是信得过，

知道如何打理自己，

衣裤端庄。。

也算靠近完美的男人。

情感嘛，

慢一点问他。。。

第二号男生，

他在面子书都‘post’ 一些处女座的东西，

我真的不肯相信他是，

我既然还问他，他觉得自己有处女座的性格吗，，，

他既然敢说他有，

快要笑爆我了，

怎么两个男人差那么多啊？

这个男啊，

糊里糊涂，

不知道自己要什么，

容易看穿，我出马，我看什么都被透出来，

衣裤不争整齐

看人的眼神是那么的弱，我的眼神都不看回

细心，我看一点都么有，

每天都不理不睬，

真的是无话可说。。。

不过在他们身上还是找到一个共同点，就是要早睡

既然星座可信怎么这两个人差那么远啊？

SPIRITUAL GIFT

Wed Mar 16 05:09:07 2011 EST

Score	Graph of Score	Spiritual Gift	Statement / Response
25	==========================	Faith	9 = 5	37 = 5	65 = 5	93 = 5	121 = 5
25	==========================	Giving	10 = 5	38 = 5	66 = 5	94 = 5	122 = 5
23	========================	Exhortation	8 = 5	36 = 3	64 = 5	92 = 5	120 = 5
23	========================	Helps	12 = 5	40 = 5	68 = 5	96 = 3	124 = 5
23	========================	Poverty	22 = 5	50 = 5	78 = 5	106 = 3	134 = 5
21	======================	Hospitality	13 = 5	41 = 5	69 = 5	97 = 5	125 = 1
21	======================	Wisdom	27 = 5	55 = 5	83 = 5	111 = 3	139 = 3
21	======================	Encouragement	6 = 1	34 = 5	62 = 5	90 = 5	118 = 5
19	====================	Music	20 = 5	48 = 5	76 = 1	104 = 5	132 = 3
19	====================	Knowledge	15 = 5	43 = 1	71 = 5	99 = 5	127 = 3
19	====================	Missionary	19 = 3	47 = 5	75 = 5	103 = 5	131 = 1
19	====================	Craftsmanship	4 = 5	32 = 5	60 = 5	88 = 3	116 = 1
18	===================	TonguesSpeaking	26 = 3	54 = 5	82 = 5	110 = 0	138 = 5
18	===================	Mercy	17 = 5	45 = 5	73 = 0	101 = 5	129 = 3
17	==================	Leadership	16 = 3	44 = 1	72 = 5	100 = 5	128 = 3
17	==================	Prophecy	23 = 3	51 = 3	79 = 5	107 = 1	135 = 5
17	==================	Healing	11 = 5	39 = 5	67 = 5	95 = 1	123 = 1
16	=================	Apostle	2 = 5	30 = 5	58 = 0	86 = 1	114 = 5
15	================	Intercession	14 = 5	42 = 3	70 = 1	98 = 5	126 = 1
15	================	Pastoring	21 = 5	49 = 3	77 = 5	105 = 1	133 = 1
15	================	Discernment	5 = 5	33 = 3	61 = 5	89 = 1	117 = 1
13	==============	Writing	28 = 5	56 = 1	84 = 5	112 = 1	140 = 1
13	==============	Evangelism	7 = 5	35 = 1	63 = 1	91 = 1	119 = 5
12	=============	Miracles	18 = 5	46 = 5	74 = 0	102 = 1	130 = 1
9	==========	Teaching	24 = 5	52 = 1	80 = 1	108 = 1	136 = 1
8	=========	Administration	1 = 3	29 = 0	57 = 1	85 = 1	113 = 3
4	=====	Celibacy	3 = 1	31 = 0	59 = 3	87 = 0	115 = 0
2	===	TonguesInterpreting	25 = 0	53 = 0	81 = 0	109 = 1	137 = 1

DR.KEVIN TOLD ME BEFORE I HAVE THE GIFT OF FAITH..IT IS SO TRUE WHEN I TOOK THIS TEST...

SPIRITUAL ATTACK

I ALMOST FORGOT I GOT IT LAST NIGHT UNTIL MY FRIEND SAID SHE HAD A NIGHTMARE...

SOMETIMES I REALLY FELT THIS,

WHEN I FELT THIS MY HEART WILL AUTOMATICALLY CALLING THE NAME OF JESUS,

IT WAS SO AMAZING,

BUT LAST NIGHT,

AGAIN I FELT THAT,

AND I DID CALLED TOO,

ALTHOUGH I DUN SEE ANYTHING,

BUT THE FEELING IS SO STRONG,

AND I COULD JUST CALL THE NAME OF GOD,

I AM SURE IT WAS A SPIRITUAL ATTACK,

BECAUSE THE NAME OF GOD APPEAR SO NATURALLY...

AT LAST I PRAYED TO GOD FOR HIS BLOOD COVERING THE PLACE...

THEN ONLY THE FEELING GONE,

WOW, NOT TELLING QIAN MIN HOW I FEEL I GUESS...

IF NOT SHE WILL BE VERY SCARE....

BUT SOMEHOW OR RATHER I COULD FELT THE EXISTENCE,

I AM NOT SCARE OF THAT BECAUSE I HAVE JESUS...

BUT I DUN FEEL LIKE I WANT THAT ALWAYS...

DISTURB MY SLEEP...

独我所有

跟朋友聊到跟人争夺东西的习惯。。

这一点我有一个结论。。

我承认我是一个不喜欢跟人抢，

喜欢一样东西我可以让给你，

不要让我拥有，拥有了不要想从我这拿掉。

听起来很野蛮，

不过我想我就是这样，

从小我是家唯一的女儿，

很害怕爸爸被人抢了，

要是我爸爸比较疼我的表妹或堂妹们，

我会吃醋。

省点力气去跟别人抢吧，

不见得会抢过人，

抢过来的东西也不见得是最好的，

我都觉得最好的东西若是我的，怎样都会是我的。

别人要抢也抢不掉。

若我真的很喜欢那样东西，

我还是会让出去，只要我还没有拥有，

我不信我找不到更好的。

让我拥有我就要独我所有，

紧握不放。。。

回来了

真实的我终于回来了,

前几个星期的我,

太伪装了,太不真实了.

我承认前几个星期我真的面对蛮多问题,

变得比较情绪化,

也比较还害怕.

怕失去,

怕输...

哈哈哈..这都太假冒了...

我的领袖有告诉我,

我好像拿捏不好自己的情绪,

变得比较容易沮丧..

想了,还挺对的..

不过我发现,真实的我回来了,

我怎么知道呢?

因为我发现我自己的坚持,

我一路来都不喜欢抄人家的功课,

我几困难我都自己做,

错就错,少分一点也不是那样,

这都是我的性格,

只要我觉得我开心...

看到同学们都为这做报告的事情烦,

有一位很要好的同学,

我真的很喜欢他,

他告诉我我们班的人都只顾着自己读书,

报告等别人做,过后就会借来抄,

要是做了也会跟你说没做

今天我真得亲眼目睹,

我只好跟这位朋友说,

人都是自私的,不过我们就不学他们了...

他们是不会跟我借的啦,

我看起来是不做的人,事实上我都自己做,

管他对错,至少那是我的东西.

我还发觉,我觉得有压力,不过我让这压力化为推动力,

也不管别人有多勤劳,

你的事啦,

你聪明你的事,

你厉害也是你的事,

我只知道我也很优秀,

我看我自己也很不错一下下,

起码我会的东西可能你们都不会,

我的心态你们也可能学不会,

看表面的人真的是特错大错.

我记得我的室友告诉我,

他们被一个朋友欺骗很久,

我只好告诉他们,

美眉们啊,

不要期望别人的接纳,

不是每一个人都可以接纳你,

不过我们也不学他们啦,

接纳每一个人,这我也还在学习,

可能表面上你相信人可以接纳你的一切,

不过内心做好心理准备,

你会被派测..

保持爱人如己的态度,

我相信这都行得通,

可能你真的很不喜欢这个人,

你可能就尝试去了解,

可能真的有一天你真的能够爱他.

我真的回来了,

从不说后悔,

因为失去的不属于我的,

我所拥有的是最好的.

我依然要笑笑的过每一天,

坚持我自己...

THE END OF THE WORLD

WHO SAID THE WORLD IS GOING TO END IN 2012?

WHO SAID JESUS IS COMING SOON?

DID GOD TELL YOU IN THE DREAM?

NONSENSE....

ACCORDING TO MATTHEW 24:36,

No one knows about that day or hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.

EVEN JESUS DUNNO WHEN HE WILL BE COMING,

PEOPLE, PLEASE DUN PREDICT ABOUT IT,

I ADMIT THERE ARE SIGNS,

BUT IT DOESN'T PROVE THAT JESUS IS COMING.

I KNEW THERE'RE DISASTER,

CHRISTIAN WILL BE PERSECUTE,

AND WE KNOW THAT CHRISTIANITY IS AGAINST NOWADAYS.

ALL THIS IS TO PREPARE US FOR THE SECOND COMING OF JESUS.

I ALWAYS HOPE JESUS TO COME AS SOON AS POSSIBLE,

I PREPARED MYSELF FOR THE DAY....

IF A GUN POINTING MY HEAD ASKING ME I WANT JESUS OR I WILL LEAVE HIM...

I WILL SAY I WANT JESUS...EVEN I KNOW I AM GOING TO DIE..

BECAUSE I KNOW HE IS THE GOD ABOVE ALL.

NOT SURE WHAT SHOULD I DO..

THAT WAS NOT RIGHT,

MAYBE IS NORMAL FOR OTHER PEOPLE,

BUT ME,I WAS TAUGHT NOT TO DO THAT,

EVEN I ALWAYS REMINDED BETTER NOT DOING THIS WAY,

BUT I SAW SOMEBODY DID THAT, BY ACCIDENTALLY I FOUND OUT,

SHOULD I SIT DOWN AND TALK ABOUT IT?

OR SHOULD I JUST SHUT UP?

I JUST DUN WAN THE MATTER OF UNEQUALLY YOLK HAPPEN,

JUST DUN WANT HIM TO FALL,

I KNOW HE IS NOT MENTALLY INDEPENDENT YET,

I SHOULD SIT DOWN AND TALK TO HIM,

BUT HOW?

I NEED WISDOM TO DO THIS,

I NEED A PROPER WAY TO COMMUNICATING.

你

你过得好吗。。。。？ 我有资格这样问吗？

错过也是一种幸福^^

生日

生日，

是我一年里最不开心的一天。

五月八号，

不是一个好天，

在我记忆里，

我没有一个好的生日。

我以为我去年的生日会开心，

结果我很生气的收场，

因着在PCFAIR打工，

回到家十一点了，

看到雪柜里有蛋糕，

不过没人唱生日歌给我听。

快要十二点了，我弟弟都还没回来。

他们回来时，生日也过了。

我就很生气的躲进房间，那个蛋糕我也不吃了。

他们就写信息给我，祝我生日快乐，

我还气的把信息删掉。

去年是一个没有生日歌的一年。

不过我得到我的BABY.

我爸爸买给我的。

以前的生日，

都是要考试，

第二天要考试。

要就不是我家人不在，

没人帮我庆祝。

可能有庆祝，

不过不是最开心的时刻。

今天是莉敏的生日，

我们帮她庆祝。她很开心。

我就告诉他们我每一年的生日都好像不开心，

我根本就不记得我有庆祝过怎样的生日。

今年也不例外，

五月九号是我的MICROBIOLOGY考试，

我生日那天，

我看我也不会开心到哪里。

可能也会忘记。

我刚才告诉他们，

我也告诉他们去年的事，

他们说，他们也听说过，我弟弟告诉他们，

他姐姐很生气，

因为他们来不及为他唱生日歌。

我就告诉他们我可以不要有生日吗。。

都不开心，

春花就回答我，

你一年只有一天不开心，

还有364开心的天。

我就笑笑的说，也对啦。

我还告诉他们，

如果那天他们没有打来，

我会独自流泪到天亮，

哈哈哈，开玩笑啦，

我想我那天肯定也不记得了。

我有364 天开心天，

何必为那一天不开。

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

Blessed....

WOW...I AM A BLESSED GIRL....

MY AUNT BROUGHT ME SOURSOP ...

I KNEW SHE LOVE ME,

ALTHOUGH SHE VERY '三八' BUT SHE IS ALWAYS NICE TO ME,

WHEN I AM HOME SHE WILL BRING ME A LOT OF FOOD,

BLESSED.....

SHE RESPECT OUR FAMILY IN THE SENSE OF RELIGION,

SHE KNEW THAT WE DUN TAKE SACRIFICED FOOD, AND SHE WILL TELL US BEFORE WE TAKE...THANK YOU GOD FOR HER....

THE SOURSOP REALLY TASTE GOOD....

LOVE IT....YUM YUM

THEN I BLESSED MYSELF SOMETHING TODAY,

WENT TO BOOKSTORE JUST NOW,

BUYING MYSELF TWO BOOKS,

ACTUALLY I WANTED TO BUY 'BATTLEFIELD OF MIND'BY JOYCE MEYER

BUT I COULD'T FOUND IT,

IT IS OK....

I FOUND TWO GOOD BOOKS.

1.WHEN YOUR HEART CRIES OUT TO GOD

2.THE REWARDS OF SIMPLICITY

WANT TO READ IT,ALTHOUGH I AM HAVING CA BUT I WILL TRY TO READ.

I DID BLESSED MYSELF WITH SOMETHING ELSE....

HAHAHA...SECRET....

IT IS SO BEAUTIFUL......

HAHAHA....KEEP IT TO MYSELF.....

I AM HAPPY WHEN I WENT TO BOOKSTORE....

HAHA, IF WANT TO DATE ME THEN DATE ME TO BOOKSTORE,

NO REASON FOR NOT COMING....WAHAHAHAHA

3.51 am

I REALLY DUNNO WHAT AM I DOING NOW.....

THE TV IS ON,

BUT NOT EVEN WATCHING....

FELT LIKE SOMETHING BOTHERING....

YA ...SOMETHING REALLY CAPTURE MY MIND...

I AM SO STRESSED OUT...

STARRING AT THE NOTES,

WHY SHOULD I SO STRESSED OUT BECAUSE OF A CA?

I REALLY COULDN'T SLEEP WHEN THIS BOTHERING ME.....

THE EFFECT OF A CUP OF,

MILK TEA+COFFEE+GREEN TEA....(TASTE GOOD)

FELT LIKE VOMITING, HEART BEAT INCREASE....

IS VERY NORMAL WHEN I COULDN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT,

I FELT MY STOMACH ACID IS JUST BURNING INSIDE,

NOT REALLY FEEL WELL....

I THINK ONE OF THE REASON I COULD'T SLEEP BECAUSE,

I WENT FOR BADMINTON IN THE EVENING,

I COULDN'T SLEEP TOO IF I AM TOO ACTIVE IN THE DAY,

I LEARNED HOW TO SMASH FROM MY BROTHER AND HIS FRIENDS,

THEY ALL WENT FOR TRAINING MAR....

BUT HE LAUGHED ME FOR NOT DOING WELL,

BUT HE DID PRAISE ME, HE SAID MY BACK HAND IS GOOD....

I NEVER REALIZED THAT....

JUST LET GO NAOMI LEE....

WHEN YOU HOLD SOMETHING,

YOU WILL NEVER GAIN,

OUTSTRETCH YOUR HANDS,

LET YOUR HAND BE FREE.........

YES, I CAN DO IT....^^

好人，坏人

我承认我不是好人，我是坏人。

好人上天堂，坏人下地狱？

我不认同。。。

怎么才算好人？

行很多善，

就可以上天堂？

错。。。。。

怎么样算坏人呢？

做很多坏事，

就下地狱吗？

特错大错。。。。。。

行善和救恩是不同的是，

这世界没有一个是义人，

只有神是。。

如何是善呢？

就是活出公义，

好怜悯，

存谦卑的心。。。。

上天堂不是凭着你行多少的善事。。。

MAD

I REALLY MAD,

I WANNA TALK TO A GANGSTER....

I REALLY DUNNO HOW TO WRITE THE WORD 'DIE'...

BUT AT LAST I DIN MANAGE TO DO THAT...

COS THE GANGSTER BROKE HIS PROMISE...

I WANT TO TALK TO THE LOAN SHARK,

NOT BECAUSE I AM BUSYBODY BUT I REALLY COULDN'T STAND TO SEE MY AUNTY AND UNCLE GOT HURT ANYMORE.

M AUNT AND UNCLE CAME TWICE TODAY,

I HAD REALLY NO IDEA HOW TO HELP THEM,

ASKING FOR MONEY TO HELP HIS SON,

SERIOUSLY I TOLD THEM,I WON'T BORROW MONEY TO THEM,

BUT I WILL TRY TO SORT THE PROBLEM OUT.

THEN SON REALLY,TERRIBLE,EVEN SHOUT AT THE FATHER.

I CALLED MY DAD, ASKING WHAT SHOULD I DO.....

MAYBE MY DAD DUN REALLY UNDERSTAND WHAT HAPPEN ACTUALLY,

THEN MY DAD SAID GIVE MONEY LO IF HE WANT,HE SAID, VALUE OF BROTHERS MORE THAN MONEY, I AGREEEEEE BUT THIS IS NOT THE WAY

I GET MAD, B UT I SAID TO MY FATHER, OOOOOKKKKKK.....

BUT IF MY DAD IS HERE I THINK MY UNCLE WON'T BE SO MISERABLE,

FOR SURE HE WILL TELL HIM WHAT TO DO..

I DID TOLD MY UNCLE WHAT TO DO,

AND HE REALLY TAKE US FOR GRANTED,

I AM SO ANGRY OF THIS,

HE KEPT ASKING US TO BORROW MONEY,

THEN MY BROTHER SAID, MY DAD SAID OK BUT MY SIS SAID CANNOT...

THEN MY 小叔ASK ME DUN BOTHER HIM,

BUT AT LAST MY 小叔STILL LENT HIM MONEY,

I KNOW HE IS NICE.....

CAN'T REALLY STUDY THIS FEW DAYS,

JUST FINISH A FEW CHAPTER ONLY,

I THINK I SHOULD GO BACK,

I SHOULD,SETTLE MY THINGS AND ALL THE STUFF TOMORROW,

AND I THINK I HAVE TO GO BACK JUNGLE AND STUDY.

这样对吗？

我想我还是要有一个二十还没到的女生想法，

我今天我觉得我真的老了，

我处理事情的方式，根本就不想一个还没到二十的人，

我既然讲话像一个大大大人。

我既然跟我叔叔有同一个想法，

如何的来帮助我的大伯一个二十岁的人既然跟一个六十岁的人讲道理，

我跟我的表哥聊的时候，

我表哥也说我真的很会想。

我一直都以为我是傻呼呼的很天真，

原来在他们的眼里我是一个很会想的人，

我看我还是得像一个小孩子比较好，

不然人家会觉得我很可怕。

很多人家看不出的是，我都看到，

我还能够分析我为什么这样看到，

我想确定我看到的是否对，我就问了一个因该跟我有一样的看见的人，

她说‘you are a smart girl'当我分析给她听我如何知道，而且我是用了那么短的时间看到。

别人可能几年了都没有看到。

我觉得自己真的很简单，

不过直到我发现我如何处理问题是，

我觉得自己好像真的一点都不简单，

怎么办好呢？

我真的好好的想过，我面临的问题，我都能够处理，我知道这智慧属于上帝的。

我还发现我很喜欢讲的一句话‘是咩？我不知道叻’ ，

我注意别人，而忘记注意我自己，

我看明天起我还是过一个二十岁女生的生活，

让人家来保护我，不是我去保护人家。

我的朋友跟我同岁，

听说她已经在准备明年要结婚了，这也太快了吧，

今天的我只在想如何去保护我的家，如何的追梦，如何的爱神，

我真的不清楚一个二十岁的人因该是如何的。

我几乎够靠着神而站立，

我的坚定依然的坚固，

我心的火依然的燃烧，

我了解这就是我的性格。

说不出话来。。。

今天，我去了我的大伯家，

我真的心痛的走出他家门。

我的大伯很疼我的，

可以说我每一个亲戚都蛮疼我，

可能嘴巴很甜吧。

前几天我还没回来的时候，

我弟弟告诉我，大伯他做工时跌到了，

说他很可怜。

今天我们两就去了他家，

他的儿子真的带给他很多麻烦，

他们家真的很。。。。咳

他的脚都不能走了，

儿子的老婆又生第二个，孩子还是不够月。

我们是那了红包去送礼。

我爸爸打电话回来时，

我问他需要给他一点钱吗？

我爸爸说，如果他没问就不用啦，不过拿五十块给他买一些东西。

我了解，我们家以前也是很缺乏，

不过既然今天我们有能力祝福别人，

我们就愿意伸出手来帮忙。

到最后，我告诉我弟弟，我拿出五十吧。

钱真的不是一切，关系才重要。

到最后我们给了一百。

我看到我的大伯的情况时，

平时多话的我，今天既然亚了，

因为我心痛到我不知道要说什么。

我也看到我的伯母，

他瘦了很多很多，

我的心更是痛。

我真的太安静了，

我的心。。。优。。。

我想说我可以为你们祷告吗？

不过没有勇气说，

他们不是信耶稣的，

虽然他们知道我们家的小孩不一样，因为我们都信耶稣。

我带着遗憾走出那家门，

因为我没有告诉他，

耶稣能够改变一切。

我跟弟弟们只能同心的祷告，

为着他们家来祷告。

I TRIED MY BEST

LAST TIME, I ALWAYS FELT I AM NOTHING WHEN COMPARE TO PEOPLE...

I AM NOT PRETTY,

THE BEST PART OF MY FACE I THINK IS THE EYEBROW,

I TRIED MY VERY BEST TO LOOK GOOD,

BUT REALIZED APPEARANCE CATCHING ONLY THE EYES BUT NOT THE HEART.

I AM NOT TALENTED,

THE BEST OF MYSELF I THINK I GOT A MOUTH,

I TRIED MY VERY BEST TO BE TOP IN MY SCHOOL LAST TIME,

BUT I REALIZED BEING TOP ARE NOT STABLE AND EASILY FALL WHEN I AM CARELESS.

I AM NOT GOOD IN MUSIC,

THE BEST PART I THINK I HAVE BOTHERS WHO ARE GOOD IN IT,

I TRIED MY BEST TO PICK UP GUITAR,

AND I AM ABLE TO DO THAT WITH THE HELP OF MY BROTHER,

HE COUNTED RHYTHM FOR ME,

HE SING AND I STRUM,

TODAY, I AM ABLE TO PICK UP SOME SONG...AT LEAST...

SHOW MY BABY HERE....

我真的看见了。。。

我今天回家了，

今天回家的路途不简单，

很长，在等待巴士的时候，

突然我就观察四周围。

我的脑海里只有一句话，

我看见人心充满伤痛，

看每一个脸孔，我不知道为什么我觉得感伤，

各种种族，不同的国际。

我看见堕落的脸孔，

我看见心灵的贫穷，

我看见物质的缺乏，

我看见人心有差别。

我只能说我看见了，

我看见破碎的世界，

我看见人心的伤痛，

我看见神因你我是蒙福的。

我心只能呐喊呼求，

让每一被蒙蔽的眼睛能看见你。

我在巴士上的隔壁座位，

坐下了一个马来女子，

我看见她拿出他的经书，

她在的读着。

我的下巴开始抖，

我很想大声地对她说，

你等的弥撒丫已经来了，

他就是耶稣基督，你看见了吗？

我前几天有读到一篇讲义，

写着：The Story of a Crucified Crook

我真的觉得的是神要我看见的，

我有生命的呼招，

我一定得完成。

我很想对那马来女子说：

那个弥撒丫就是耶稣基督，

他是王，不过他带的不是冠冕而是荆棘，

他是王，他手中的珽就是那钉子，

他是王，他的长袍是在他的脚下，不是在他的肩上。

不过我知道这些我不能说，

我的下巴只能抖，

我的眼泪就流下，

我的心只能呼求，

有一天每一个人的眼睛都能被打开，

看见神的荣耀，

看见你是那位真神，

看见你就是那真理，生命和道路。

然每一个人都亲眼看见你。

FINALLY.....

FINALLY, I HAVE DONE ALL MY REVISION,

FINALLY, I AM NO LONGER STUCK IN LIBRARY,

FINALLY, I AM GOING BACK HOME TOMORROW,

FINALLY, I WILL HAVE A WEEK HOLIDAY(KONONNYA HOLIDAY)

FINALLY, I AM ABLE TO SEE MY BROTHER BY TOMORROW,

FINALLY, I WILL BE SITTING IN THE EXAM HALL TOMORROW.

LAST FEW NIGHT I CAN'T SLEEP...IMSONIA

STRESS?

SINCE WHEN I BECOME A BIT KIA SU ONE HAR?

BEFORE THAT I EVERYDAY CIN CAI CIN CAI...

BUT,I SEEMS LIKE I MUST DID WELL,

I AM NOT STUPID ACTUALLY,

WHEN COMPARING ME(LAZY WORM) TO MY CLASSMATE(BOOK CATERPILLAR)...

I AM NOT REALLY THAT STUPID...HAHAHAHAHA.......

I A BIT KIA SU BECAUSE I HAD SET A TARGET BETTER WORDS HIGHER STANDARD FOR MYSELF....

白色

我真的太喜欢白色了，

特别是白色的衣服，

每次要买衣不是白就是黑，灰，紫。

怎样都好，大多数还是会选择白。

因为白色就是那么的引起我的注意力。

特别是男人，平时不看的，

若他穿上白色我都会多看他两眼，

我特别记得。。

我记得，我中二的科学老师，他穿上白色真的很帅，他是一个很年轻的老师。

我弟弟每次穿白色我都会觉得他变帅，

我发觉我有时会觉得某某人很好看都是在穿白色的时候，

我都不记得谁修过我的头发，不过我记得这个男生他帮我修过因为他那天就 穿着白色polo tee，

虽然他不帅，不过我就记得他。。到今天我还记得他的样子。。。

哈哈哈哈。。。我不正常。。。。就只有这个颜色可以让我留下印象。。。

白色是那么的干净

那么的纯洁，

把每一个穿上的人都显得很干净。。

RATHER LOSING MYSELF

I REALIZED SOMETHING TODAY,

THERE IS A WAY I DUN REALLY BRING PRAISE.

I AM SO SHY TO SHARE JESUS WITH ALL MY GOOD FRIENDS,

BUT I SHARE JESUS WITH PEOPLE I DUNNO SPONTANEOUSLY,

THE HOLY SPIRIT REMINDED ME THAT BECAUSE I AFRAID I GOT REJECTED BY THEM,

I AM SHY TO SHARE JESUS WITH THEM,

BECAUSE I FELT IN A BIG GROUP, I AM TOO TINY, AFRAID I CALLED THE TERM RELIGIOUS OR SUPERSTITIOUS,I SHOULD'T MIND THAT,BECAUSE IF I AM NOT DIFFERENT FROM OTHERS THEN I REALLY NOT GLORIFYING GOD'S NAME

THE HOLY SPIRIT REMINDED ME AGAIN,

I HAVE GOD WHOSE NAME ABOVE ALL NAME,

HE ALONE ARE GOD,I HAVE HIM SO I AM BIGGER THAN EVERYTHING.

YA,

I SHOULD TELL MY FRIENDS WHAT GOD DID IN MY LIFE,

HE IS SO TRUTH AND FAITHFUL,

A GOD THAT NEVER FAIL,

HIS UNFAILING LOVE,

HIS GRACE ARE SO FREE,

HE IS A RIGHTEOUS AND JUSTICE GOD...

THERE IS NO OTHER GOD BESIDE HIM ALONE...

I RATHER LOSING MYSELF SO I CAN BRING HIM PRAISE...

PRAISE YOUR NAME LORD....

YOU'RE ABOVE ALL

简单

简单就是美，

简单就是生命的主旋律，

简单是谈谈的滋味却甜甜的，

简单的来却不平凡也不草率，

简单才能活得自由自在，

简单不代表脑袋简单，简单是不复杂！

不追求物质就是简单，

抱着小小梦想是简单，

带着希望和期待很简单，

简单爱就能简单，

不自私就是简单，

知足感恩就是简单，

拥抱接纳每一天就能简单，

带着笑容过每一天就是这么简单。