COUNTDOWN 4 DAYS...

YAHOOO.....

LANGKAWI HERE WE COME....

GOING TO LANGKAWI....

FUN?HAPPY?.....

HAHAHA....KINDA KINDASSS

BUT I AM GOING WITH SOMEBODY....

NEVER THOUGHT OF IT....WHO AR?

SENDIRI TAU SUDAH LA....

HOPE IT IS GOING TO BE A GREAT TIME...

PANDAN BUTTER CAKE

SUDDENLY FELT LIKE WANT TO BAKE CAKE...SO I JUST SEARCHED ALL OVER THE CUPBOARD AND FRIDGE SEE WHETHER THEIR IS ANY INGREDIENT FOR ME TO BAKE SOME CAKE...

YEAH, I CAKE BAKE BUTTER CAKE....BUT I SAW THE PANDAN PASTE LEFT OVER...SO I AM NOT SURE WHETHER I CAKE BAKE PANDAN BUTTER CAKE OR NOT...WHO CARE...I BAKE JUST FOR FUN NOT TO EAT...MY BROTHER EATING...NOT ME....HAHAHAHA

INGREDIENT:

3 EGGS

2 CUP OF FLOUR

185 GRAM OF BUTTER

VANILA ESSENCE

PANDAN PASTE

MILK

SUGAR

PROCEDURE:

1. BEAT THE BUTTER,SUGAR AND VANILA ESSENCE TOGETHER TILL SMOOTH AND FLUFFY.

2.ADD IN EGG...ADD IN ONE BY ONE...THEN ADD IN PANDAN PASTE

3.ADD IN HALF OF THE FLOUR AND CONTINUE BEATING TOGETHER WITH THE MILK...ADD THE REST OF THE FLOUR.

4.POUR THE BATTER INTO THE BAKING PLATE.. AND BAKE..

MY BROTHER SAY..THIS THE BEST CAKE I EVER MADE...

爸爸， 女儿懂事了！！！

爸爸，我们有差不多两年没见面。。你每次说要回来不过因为放不下工作。。。这次也是你离开的最久的。。
虽然已经习惯了。。不过。。。
爸爸，女儿想说我想爸爸。。。
今天我突然想起这十九年来你对我做的每一件事。。。
从小，我就知道爸爸很疼我，每一次妈妈骂我或鞭我。。你一定会跟妈妈吵架。。。
亲戚们都说你把女儿当宝儿子当草。。。不过我觉得你也很爱弟弟们。。。你没有偏心。。
我记得我一年级时候。。你每天早上都会弄恨我喜欢的饮料让我带去学校。。。也送我上学。。。
我也记得，每一次你都会教我写英文作文，有时候你还会特地跑来学校告诉我你觉得你的用词错了。。。
当我升中一的时候，你也是叫妈妈每天要准时的载送我。。有一次，妈妈迟到结果我很生气就一阵天都不说话，你放工看到我这样，你就开始骂妈妈，问他为什么迟到，这一点小事都做不好。。。
我真的不知道爸爸为什么那么保护我。。。
至到中三。。妈妈突然怀孕了，你们很害怕要告诉我，因为怕我不能接受。。。
那时我真的不能接受。。。我抱着那害怕的心情。。你们都说如果这是女生那多么好。。那个时候我不跟你们说话，有三个月吧。。。爸爸几乎每一天都在我房间的们那里哄我。。告诉我虽然那是妹妹你也一样的疼我。。。
不过我还是不能接受。。直到确认那是弟弟我才跟你们说话。。那时的我是多么的愚蠢。。多么的无知。。
不过我们的家慢慢就有变化了，妈妈不在属于我们家的一部分，她让你伤心。。那时候我是多么的恨他。。。
你每一次告诉我不可以哭，因为我哭你会担心，我知道我的眼泪能让你无助。。。
你知道吗？我也看到你哭了。。。那时的我也是很担心也是很无助。。。
不过今天女儿了解了。。。每一间的事情发生一定有它的原因。。。
神让每一件事发生都有他的旨意。。。
现在我要好好的爱弟弟们。。我知道你为了我们的家你很努力的去争取，我们都看到了。。谢谢爸爸。。

你和我是多么的幸运。。。

TODAY, DR KEVIN AND LEE YEN TOOK ME PAY A VISIT TO AN ORPHANAGE HOME RUN BY AN INDIAN PASTOR...BEFORE I GO, I TOLD MYSELF TO HAVE A READY HEART TO SEE WHAT I WILL SEE LATER....THE MOMENT I STEPPED MY FEET IN TO THE HOME...MY HEART BEATS VERY VERY FAST...THE HEART OF COMPASSION IS BEATING....WE WERE GREET BY AN INDIAN KIDS....AND I SMILE AT HIM.....LATER ON WE WALKED INTO THE PASTOR'S OFFICE...WE TALKED AND I KNEW THAT THEY SEPARATED THE BOYS AND THE GIRLS AND AROUND 50 KIDS THEY ARE TAKING CARE OF AND THEY ARE IN A POOR FINANCIAL SITUATION......

THIS IS THE MAIN GATE....AND THE MAN WITH THE SHIRT TUCK IN ARE THE PASTOR...PRAISE THE LORD...GIVING HIM A HEART COMPASSION FOR ALL THIS KIDS...

这是他们睡的地方，还算不错他们有一个住所。。。。

THIS KIDS REALLY SO 可怜, HE IS A SPECIAL KIDS AND HE DOESN'T LOOK

NORMAL....

sleeping area。。。。。ZZZZZZZ

THIS A FEW KIDS....SOME OF THEM ARE NOT A NORMAL KIDS.....THEY ARE JUST A PRIMARY STUDENT......

THIS IS THE HOME FOR THE GIRLS....PASTOR'S WIFE IN CHARGE HERE...AND IT LOCATED NEARBY ONLY......

THIS IS DANIEL....A LITTLE BOY.....HE

LOVES TO SHARE...AND HE SMILE A LOT...

HE IS SO INNOCENT...

THE MOMENT WE CAME IN, AND THE KIDS JUST LOOKED AT US.....AND I JUST SAID HELLO TO THEM...

THIS FEW KIDS ARE BROTHER AND SISTERS......I NEVER NEVER EXPECT THEY HAVE SUCH A FAMILY BACKGROUND....THIS IS WHAT ARNOLD TOLD ME...他们是姐弟，同一个妈妈，不过全部都不同爸爸。。。那一刻我就问他为什么。。他就说''他们的妈妈是有精神病，她每一次被人强奸，然后就怀孕。。。那时候我就看他们的脸。。他们真的都张得不一样。。。不过那三个女生都很漂亮，有很漂亮的眼睛，很长的眼睫毛。。他们是多么的无辜。。。他们差不多六，五，四，和两岁。。。他们的名字是GRACE,RUTH,ESTHER AND DANIEL.....那个四岁的前两个月不能走路，因为营养不良。。。他们也是刚被带来这不就。。。现在她能走了。。。

为什么这个世界有这么不负责任的父母呢？孩子是无辜的。。。虽然我的妈妈也离开我们的家，不过我们还有一个很爱我们的爸爸，我也不怪我的妈妈，我知道我的父母会分开有他们的原因，我真的比他们幸运很多很多很多。。。他们需要的是爱。。。我抱着什么样的心情面对我的每一天？我有感恩吗？我有时候还会COMPLAIN这个不好吃那个不好用。。。我到底怎么啦？那么不知足。。。想到他们眼泪就自然的留下。。。你要好好的爱他们。。。为什么我拥有的是那么多？我有的真的太多了。。希望神赐我一刻怜悯的心。。然我能赐福人群。。赐我仁爱，然我好好爱那些软弱的。。赐我刚强壮但的心。。不怕困苦。。。

GONE THROUGH TODAY...

YEAH..FINALLY..

ALTHOUGH TODAY A BIT..ERM..NOT REALLY A GOOD GOOD DAY BUT I STILL GONE THROUGH IT....

EVERYTHING SEEMS NOT SMOOTH TODAY.....

HAHAHA..MAYBE I STARTED THE DAY WITH CUP OF MILK INSTEAD OF COFFEE...

DUNNO WHY, JUST FELT LIKE DRINKING MILK THIS MORNING...

I FEEL SLEEPY FOR THE WHOLE MORNING.....

CAN'T CONCENTRATE IN CLASS.....

JUST LOOKING AT THE UNDER THE UMBRELLA MUSIC SHEET FOR THE WHOLE MORNING......

PASSED UP PTPTN FORM...FORM GOT REJECTED...MY FAULT, BECAUSE I FORGOT TO BUY THE STAMP HASIL...IT COST ME 10 RINGGIT EACH AND 50 CENT FOR EXTRA CHARGE....REALLY A LOT...

THEN I WENT FOR NAP...IT HAS BEE AN AGE I DIN TOOK TAKE NAP..BUT SLEPT THIS AFTER NOON....

I LATE FOR CLASS....SWEAT...

THE WORST PART....

I GOT AN ULCER IN MOUTH....SHOULD BE ON THE LEFT SITE OF THE TONGUE...IT IS REALLY A TORTURE....BUT GOOD TOO..NO NEED TO EAT..BUT I SEEMS TO BE VERY VERY HUNGRY....I PUT A BIT OF SALT ON IT...AND IT IS VERY VERY PAINFUL..AT LAST I KNOW WHAT PEOPLE MEANS BY 在伤口撒盐。。。原来是那么痛的。。。。哈哈哈。。。

BUT I CAN STILL COPE WITH IT....BUAHAHAHA...

ALTHOUGH TODAY NOT REALLY WELL.. BUT I AM STILL THE SAME YESTERDAY,TODAY AND TOMORROW....