IT IS NOW 4.22AM....WHAT I AM DOING HERE?

ALREADY TWO NIGHT..I AM STILL AWAKE AT THIS MOMENT.....

I AM NOT SURE WHAT IS BOTHERING ME?ANYTHING?

READ MY NOTES,BUT NOTHING GO IN....

SEARCH FOR SOME INFO..HOW I SEARCH ALSO I COULDN'T FIND WHAT I WANT....

WATCH DRAMA...THE DRAMA SEEMS DOESN'T ATTRACT ME.....

PLAY GAMES..NOT YET 10 MINUTES I SHUT IT OFF....

FELT LIKE WANT TO LISTEN TO SONGS...BUT I JUST SCROLL THE SONG LIST UP AND DOWN......

TRY TO PLAY GUITAR..BUT COULDN'T CATCH THE RHYTHM....

SO BLANK AND BLURR...WHAT HAPPENED ACTUALLY?WHAT IT IS?

I REALLY FELT SOMETHING HOLDING...THERE SHOULD BE SOME CHANGES?

THE SILENT MOMENT NOW MAKE MY HEART BEATS SOUND VISIBLE TO MY EARS....

IT FAST AND STRONG...

SOMEMORE...I DUNNO WHY THIS FELLA HAVE SOME KIND OF ACTION AND SAYINGS....

WHY HAR?I ALWAYS THOUGHT WE ARE FRIENDS THAT JOKES AROUND...

BUT HE TOLD ME SOMETHING VERY WEIRD....I PROMISES NOT TO TAKE IT IN HEART...BUT ..CAN I?HE MAKE ME STEP FEW STEP AWAY FROM HIM...

JUST HAVE SOME GAP BETTER...YOU ARE WRONG ON WHAT YOU FEEL....AND THAT IS JUST TEMPORARY....AND THAT IS NOT WHAT YOU THOUGHTS.....

I ALREADY USED TO HERE DY..BUT WHEN I FACING SOME PROBLEMS..MY HEART DRAW ME BACK TO HOME..WHERE I CAN TALK TO MY BRO....

GONNA USE THIS HOLIDAY DOING BAKING AND COOKING TO THE MAX....THREE TYPE OF CAKES IN A DAY? 5 DISHES?IT IS POSSIBLE? I GUESS SO..IF I REALLY WANNA DO IT...COS THEY ARE MY HOBBY MAR....

我相信。。我等待

我真的受不了。。
为什么见面或打电话看到我都喜欢问我这个问题。。。
我表妹，我表哥，我表姐，堂哥，我阿姨，我舅舅，堂妹，我姑姑，我朋友。。。
都是这样。。怎么啦你们。。
嗨哟。。就是喜欢问我有没有男朋友。。。哟。。。。
我是太差是不是，担心我嫁不出去？嗨哟。。。。
我都不心急，你们急什么？

我相信，只要慢慢等，那对的人一定会出现。。
我相信，来得早的爱往往都不是真爱，爱来得早走得比较早
我相信，爱来得匆忙也会匆忙的走。。匆匆忙忙的来，匆匆忙忙的走。。
我也相信，只要缘深，就不怕缘来得迟。。

有时会想，我错过的会不会是最好的？我错过的以后都不再会有吗？我错过的就是对的人吗？

不过，我还是相信，一切都是感觉，你会知道那人是不是最好的是不是对的人，
爱是不会输给时间，问题只是是早还是迟，它还是会来。。爱是忍耐吗。。就慢慢等吧。。不急不急。。。哈哈哈哈哈 (^^)

星期四。。。想家

有时候。。我真的很不喜欢星期四。。。

上课时间长。。若星期五不能回。。我就会一直想着我的家。。。

那几瓜个在家还好吗？他们有想我吗？？？

刚才跟朋友们吃宵夜。。我到今天还是没有勇气要吃下一粒汉堡。。。

哈哈哈。。大家明天就要回了。。我呢？星期二才能回。。

今天很自然的不知道为什么。。在伟明的面前，对他说了很多东西。。眼眶好像有泪水。。怎么啦我？他因该没有看到吧。。也就那么一下下。。有时候我跟nicson讲电话。。可以讲上几个小时。

如果面对面在家。。什么话都可以讲。。期待星期二回家。。。要好好的煮一些菜。。要做一些蛋糕。。做自己喜欢的东西真开心。。最喜欢的是晚上跟我的弟弟去抓萤火虫。。真的很开心。。。

开心当我弟弟说。。姐，你煮的菜很好吃。。。姐，你做的蛋糕和你好吃。。。姐，你回来真好。

当我们一起下棋，玩牌 和讲废话，，那时候。。真的很不一样。。我们一起去吃

roti prata。。。那感觉真的很棒。。。我们取笑彼此不过还是很开心。。

NICSON

我每天叫他啊肥，因为他真的很肥。。不过肥得很可爱一下下。。我的弟弟也是我最好的朋友，有时候我真的很不开心的时候。。只要我打给他，他的一句哈咯，我的眼泪流下了。。我明白，在我爱的人面前真的隐瞒不了我的感觉。。哈哈哈。。他告诉我他的朋友说他像robert Pattison。。我笑道我肚子快要爆炸。。其实他的脸型会像。。如果他瘦一点的话。。。他告诉我他的朋友觉得她姐姐很美，眼睛很漂亮，长得像abc。。我还蛮开心一下下。。。他看到我很开心，后面就加一句。。我都不知道那个emily的眼睛是不是有大便，既然讲我姐姐很美。。我一点都不觉得。这就是我们开玩笑的方式。。

NASH

每天都说他不喜欢人家说他长得像我，因为他觉得他姐姐很丑。。。我也一样。。。人人都说他长得很像我不过我也是说他最好不要像我，如果是的话就代表我很丑。。因为我觉得他丑。。其实他很好看..他是个很懂事的人。。他要的东西他会很害羞的对我说。。去逛街买衣。。他是最听我的话要买哪一个衣服。。他很喜欢穿到很好看。。其实也都不是我帮他选的衣服。。。人家称赞他。。他就一副害羞的脸。。。我觉得他真的很可爱。。他告诉过我，有女生跟他告白。。我笑不能停。。。就是这么简单。。。他最喜欢吃我煮的牛肉意大利面。。

NATHANIEL

他呢。。是脾气最坏的一个。。。不过他也是有温柔的一面。。。当他知道他错了。。他就会认错。。他长得比较像NICSON。。。他也是很喜欢讲我。。他每次都会说。。姐，我真的不明白你咯，你不喜欢出门，然后你把你头发啊。。。。，有那么多衣服做么？你在家就穿烂烂的衣裤。。做么？又没有出门。。我就会说。。我自己看啦。。做么要给人看。。然后，他每次都帮我做蛋糕。。其实也没帮到什么。。。就在旁边一直讲话。。。讲个不停。。。

NOEL

他呢，，，四岁。。不过是很爱美的。。。我朋友都说哥哥姐姐教坏他。。他这么小就会想要买自己要的鞋。。出门去也要穿好看的。。你讲他不帅他就生气。。我就是特地喜欢捉弄他，，讲他不帅。。他就很生气去房间哭。。。很可爱。。去到哪里人家都很喜欢他。。我记得有一次。。我很久没回家了。。因为要考试。。我就跟他聊电话。。他说了一句话。。我的眼泪就流了下来。。。他说。。。姐，你为什么那么久没有回来？你要快点回来。。那个时候的我真的不知道怎么回答。。。哈哈哈。。就是他们能然我开心。。

虽然我弟弟很喜欢酸我。。不过我的领袖告诉过我。。我弟弟他们每次都把他的姐姐挂在嘴边。。他们都会说‘我姐姐讲’，还是‘你问我姐姐啦’，我姐姐买的，我姐姐做的，我姐姐这个星期回。。什么都是他姐姐。。那时我听到的是我真的很惊讶。。我都以为我弟弟觉的我很烦。。不过，我很清楚的知道，我弟弟都很勇敢。。因为我告诉他，有什么或被人欺负，他姐姐一定会帮他。。很高兴你们那么配合我。。。

WHY I AM SO HAPPY TODAY?

I KEPT SMILING AND LAUGHING FOR THE WHOLE DAY..

WHAT'S THE PROBLEM WITH ME?

WHO CARE..JANJI I HAPPPIIEEEE...HAHAHAHA

I BECAME VICTIM OF DR. SUDBASH...HE LIKE TO ASK ME QUESTION..I GUESS ONLY ME ALONE ANSWERED HIM...ALTHOUGH MY ANSWER WRONG BUT WHO CARE...WE LEARN FROM MISTAKES....

SAW SOME FRIENDS IN LIBRARY...VINCENT...HAHAHA...HE TOLD ME A LOT OF STORIES...

HOW HIS FRIEND...HIS FRIEND'S ATTITUDES....BLA BLA BLA..AND NICE STORY TELLING HAR....WHEN HE CRITICIZED THE GIRLS IN DENTISTRY....HAHAHA..I ALSO DUNNO WAT TO SAY...LATER ON MET JIALEK AND SOO TEING....DRESSED DIFFERENTLY COS WE HAVE PRESENTATION ON....LATER ROLAND AND KEVIN...FUNNY LO..I SAID I WANT TO CHANGE MY HAIRSTYLE..KEVIN SUGGESTED A LOT...HAHAHA....LATER ON SOMETHING FUNNIER HAPPENED...I DID SOMETHING AND SOMEONE FOUND OUT MAYBE...DUNNO...I WAS SHOCKED THAT MOMENT BECAUSE SOMEONE REALISED WHAT I AM DOING..HAHAHA

PRESENTATION TIME....BLA BLA BLA..FINISHED...THEN I ATE A LOT TONIGHT...DUNNO WHY..FELT HAPPY THEN I FELT LIKE WANT TO EAT A LOT....HAHAHAHA....I KEPT SMILING FOR THE WHOLE DAY..THEY MIGHT THINK I AM CRAZY...BUT I REALLY CAN'T CLOSE MY MOUTH AND NOT SHOWING MY TEETH...

我今天错了。。。

我都告诉自己。。不要判断人。。。

我今天做了。。

我的朋友有女朋友。。

我说了一些不因该从我口出去的。。

我说我朋友的品味。。为什么我要这样呢？

我真的伤到那个女生了。。虽然她不知道。。真的很抱歉。。。我收回我的话。。。。

当大家离开那桌子的时候。。我坐到我的位子上。。。

那责备的心是那么的重。。。

真的对不起。。。我也请求神来洁净我的口。。

如果有一天我也有男朋友。。他的朋友也怀疑他的品味。。我真的会很伤心。。

我真的不可以以貌取人。。爱是看内行。。。不是外表。。我明白了。。。

TRIP TO LANGKAWI....

BEACH

TRIP TO LANGKAWI...

HAPPY AND NOT VERY HAPPY AS CONCLUSION..

SOME PICTURES FOR MEMORY....AND REMEMBERED...

FIRST DAY

WE ARRIVED THERE AROUND 5...MAYBE..THEN WE EAT FIRST...

BUT EVERYTHING SEEMS TO BE NOT GOING ON THE RIGHT PATH...

BUT IT IS OK..

AFTER EATING...WE GO AND BUY SOME WINE AND SNACK.....LATER ON HEADING TO THE BEACH...PLAYING TRUTH AND DARE....

I WAS ASKED A QUESTION.....WAS THIS GUY THE ONE YOU SEARCHING FOR AS YOUR LIFE PARTNER? FUNNY..I ANSWERED NO....I AM SO PROUD WITH MY ANSWER...IN FRONT OF HIM SOME MORE....THEN WE BACK TO HOTEL...I WAS NOT REALLY HAPPY AND PLUS..I AM SO TIRED...THE DRINK AND I

SLEEP....

SECOND DAY.....

WENT ISLAND HOPING.....DIN TAKE ANY PICTURES USING MY PHONE BECAUSE I DIN BRING MY PHONE THERE....LATER ON CABLE CAR..TOOK SOME PICTURES..HAHAHA..MY ZI LIAN PIC....BUAHAHAHAHA

NICE SET UP OF FRUIT JUICE STALL

QIAN MIN

SHIN YUAN

TYZZ MEY

LOOK LIKE WAY TO HEAVEN

IN THE CABLE CAR,SO WINDY OUTSIDE...OBVIOUSLY..MY HAIR FLY

ON THE TOP OF THE HILL...7OO M ABOVE SEA LEVEL....

ONE CABLE CAR WITH FRANCIS...AND ALSO QM,SY AND JZ


THIRD DAY....

I WAKE UP SO EARLY...NOTHING TO DO..SO I JUST WALKED AROUND THE BEACH...

WOW..WALKING ALONE..SEEMS SO PEACEFULLY.....LATER ON...BUYING CHOCOLATE AND BALIK...

WHAT I LOVE....

I LOVE WHITE AND BLACK...BECAUSE THE OTHERS WILL FILLED UP OTHER COLOURS..

I LOVE SUDOKU..BECAUSE IT MAKE ME THINK AND FEEL QUIET...

I LOVE BLOGGING...BECAUSE I ABLE TO EXPRESS WHAT I WANT WITHOUT A SOUND....

I LOVE READING...BECAUSE READING MAKE ME A PRUDENT PERSON....

I LOVE DURIAN...BECAUSE THE TASTE MAKE ME REMEMBERED IT....

I LOVE BLUE CHEESE...BECAUSE IT IS THE MOST ROTTEN CHEESE AND SMELLY....

I LOVE APPLES... BE CAUSE I NEED IT EVERYDAY...

I LOVE GIVING...BECAUSE GIVING TAUGHT ME NOT ONLY RECEIVING....

I LOVE BAKING.... BECAUSE I LOVE TO HEAR MY BROTHER SAY....JIE,THE CAKE YOU MAKE VERY NICE....

I LOVE COOKING... BECAUSE I LOVE TO SEE MY BROTHER EAT WHAT I COOKED....

I LOVE TO LAUGH... BECAUSE THIS IS THE WAY I HIDE MY MIND FROM PEOPLE....

I LOVE TO TALK.. BECAUSE THIS IS THE WAY I KNOW PEOPLE BETTER...

我想太多？我看错？还是事实就是这样？

有时候啊。。。

我弟弟说我是一个恐怖的女人。。。

每天讲话不认真又搞笑，但认真起来，他真的很害怕。。。

每天笑笑的，当我真的伤心，他说那时是他害怕的时候。。

他说我最恐怖的是我观察人的能力。。。

表面上看起来就是那种什么都不知道，其实知道的比人多。。。

我真的不是虚伪，我也没有做作。。。我也不知道要用什么来形容我自己。。

我也真的不知道我在观察人。。就是这么自然的。。。

我都会问我弟弟，这个人是不是这那样。。。我弟弟都会说我想太多。。我就会应他。。。不是我想太多，是你们根本就没有想。。。

最近我发现一些东西。。。

我发现有一个女生好像对一个男生有意识。。

为什么我会这样讲呢？

我自己也搞不清楚。。就是亦我所看听的来判断。。。哈哈哈哈。。。

很自然的这个女生突然的提起他。。在一个他的名字不该出现的时候。。他被提起。。哈哈哈

我也很自然的。。问他喜欢怎么样的男生..诶..那个男生也符合哪些条件...哈哈哈

然后啊..那女生的眼神一直往那个男生的方向看....跟我说话时..也一样...那女生的眼睛都会一直的往同一个方向描...哈哈哈...

哈哈..她可能不知道我在看她在做什么吧....哈哈哈....

不过哦..是我想太多吗?还是就是这样呢?

(奶油面,你是傻瓜笨蛋吗?你不会继续的观察吗?).......是哦...我就继续的安静安静的观察......哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈.....

COUNTDOWN 4 DAYS...

YAHOOO.....

LANGKAWI HERE WE COME....

GOING TO LANGKAWI....

FUN?HAPPY?.....

HAHAHA....KINDA KINDASSS

BUT I AM GOING WITH SOMEBODY....

NEVER THOUGHT OF IT....WHO AR?

SENDIRI TAU SUDAH LA....

HOPE IT IS GOING TO BE A GREAT TIME...

PANDAN BUTTER CAKE

SUDDENLY FELT LIKE WANT TO BAKE CAKE...SO I JUST SEARCHED ALL OVER THE CUPBOARD AND FRIDGE SEE WHETHER THEIR IS ANY INGREDIENT FOR ME TO BAKE SOME CAKE...

YEAH, I CAKE BAKE BUTTER CAKE....BUT I SAW THE PANDAN PASTE LEFT OVER...SO I AM NOT SURE WHETHER I CAKE BAKE PANDAN BUTTER CAKE OR NOT...WHO CARE...I BAKE JUST FOR FUN NOT TO EAT...MY BROTHER EATING...NOT ME....HAHAHAHA

INGREDIENT:

3 EGGS

2 CUP OF FLOUR

185 GRAM OF BUTTER

VANILA ESSENCE

PANDAN PASTE

MILK

SUGAR

PROCEDURE:

1. BEAT THE BUTTER,SUGAR AND VANILA ESSENCE TOGETHER TILL SMOOTH AND FLUFFY.

2.ADD IN EGG...ADD IN ONE BY ONE...THEN ADD IN PANDAN PASTE

3.ADD IN HALF OF THE FLOUR AND CONTINUE BEATING TOGETHER WITH THE MILK...ADD THE REST OF THE FLOUR.

4.POUR THE BATTER INTO THE BAKING PLATE.. AND BAKE..

MY BROTHER SAY..THIS THE BEST CAKE I EVER MADE...

爸爸， 女儿懂事了！！！

爸爸，我们有差不多两年没见面。。你每次说要回来不过因为放不下工作。。。这次也是你离开的最久的。。
虽然已经习惯了。。不过。。。
爸爸，女儿想说我想爸爸。。。
今天我突然想起这十九年来你对我做的每一件事。。。
从小，我就知道爸爸很疼我，每一次妈妈骂我或鞭我。。你一定会跟妈妈吵架。。。
亲戚们都说你把女儿当宝儿子当草。。。不过我觉得你也很爱弟弟们。。。你没有偏心。。
我记得我一年级时候。。你每天早上都会弄恨我喜欢的饮料让我带去学校。。。也送我上学。。。
我也记得，每一次你都会教我写英文作文，有时候你还会特地跑来学校告诉我你觉得你的用词错了。。。
当我升中一的时候，你也是叫妈妈每天要准时的载送我。。有一次，妈妈迟到结果我很生气就一阵天都不说话，你放工看到我这样，你就开始骂妈妈，问他为什么迟到，这一点小事都做不好。。。
我真的不知道爸爸为什么那么保护我。。。
至到中三。。妈妈突然怀孕了，你们很害怕要告诉我，因为怕我不能接受。。。
那时我真的不能接受。。。我抱着那害怕的心情。。你们都说如果这是女生那多么好。。那个时候我不跟你们说话，有三个月吧。。。爸爸几乎每一天都在我房间的们那里哄我。。告诉我虽然那是妹妹你也一样的疼我。。。
不过我还是不能接受。。直到确认那是弟弟我才跟你们说话。。那时的我是多么的愚蠢。。多么的无知。。
不过我们的家慢慢就有变化了，妈妈不在属于我们家的一部分，她让你伤心。。那时候我是多么的恨他。。。
你每一次告诉我不可以哭，因为我哭你会担心，我知道我的眼泪能让你无助。。。
你知道吗？我也看到你哭了。。。那时的我也是很担心也是很无助。。。
不过今天女儿了解了。。。每一间的事情发生一定有它的原因。。。
神让每一件事发生都有他的旨意。。。
现在我要好好的爱弟弟们。。我知道你为了我们的家你很努力的去争取，我们都看到了。。谢谢爸爸。。

你和我是多么的幸运。。。

TODAY, DR KEVIN AND LEE YEN TOOK ME PAY A VISIT TO AN ORPHANAGE HOME RUN BY AN INDIAN PASTOR...BEFORE I GO, I TOLD MYSELF TO HAVE A READY HEART TO SEE WHAT I WILL SEE LATER....THE MOMENT I STEPPED MY FEET IN TO THE HOME...MY HEART BEATS VERY VERY FAST...THE HEART OF COMPASSION IS BEATING....WE WERE GREET BY AN INDIAN KIDS....AND I SMILE AT HIM.....LATER ON WE WALKED INTO THE PASTOR'S OFFICE...WE TALKED AND I KNEW THAT THEY SEPARATED THE BOYS AND THE GIRLS AND AROUND 50 KIDS THEY ARE TAKING CARE OF AND THEY ARE IN A POOR FINANCIAL SITUATION......

THIS IS THE MAIN GATE....AND THE MAN WITH THE SHIRT TUCK IN ARE THE PASTOR...PRAISE THE LORD...GIVING HIM A HEART COMPASSION FOR ALL THIS KIDS...

这是他们睡的地方，还算不错他们有一个住所。。。。

THIS KIDS REALLY SO 可怜, HE IS A SPECIAL KIDS AND HE DOESN'T LOOK

NORMAL....

sleeping area。。。。。ZZZZZZZ

THIS A FEW KIDS....SOME OF THEM ARE NOT A NORMAL KIDS.....THEY ARE JUST A PRIMARY STUDENT......

THIS IS THE HOME FOR THE GIRLS....PASTOR'S WIFE IN CHARGE HERE...AND IT LOCATED NEARBY ONLY......

THIS IS DANIEL....A LITTLE BOY.....HE

LOVES TO SHARE...AND HE SMILE A LOT...

HE IS SO INNOCENT...

THE MOMENT WE CAME IN, AND THE KIDS JUST LOOKED AT US.....AND I JUST SAID HELLO TO THEM...

THIS FEW KIDS ARE BROTHER AND SISTERS......I NEVER NEVER EXPECT THEY HAVE SUCH A FAMILY BACKGROUND....THIS IS WHAT ARNOLD TOLD ME...他们是姐弟，同一个妈妈，不过全部都不同爸爸。。。那一刻我就问他为什么。。他就说''他们的妈妈是有精神病，她每一次被人强奸，然后就怀孕。。。那时候我就看他们的脸。。他们真的都张得不一样。。。不过那三个女生都很漂亮，有很漂亮的眼睛，很长的眼睫毛。。他们是多么的无辜。。。他们差不多六，五，四，和两岁。。。他们的名字是GRACE,RUTH,ESTHER AND DANIEL.....那个四岁的前两个月不能走路，因为营养不良。。。他们也是刚被带来这不就。。。现在她能走了。。。

为什么这个世界有这么不负责任的父母呢？孩子是无辜的。。。虽然我的妈妈也离开我们的家，不过我们还有一个很爱我们的爸爸，我也不怪我的妈妈，我知道我的父母会分开有他们的原因，我真的比他们幸运很多很多很多。。。他们需要的是爱。。。我抱着什么样的心情面对我的每一天？我有感恩吗？我有时候还会COMPLAIN这个不好吃那个不好用。。。我到底怎么啦？那么不知足。。。想到他们眼泪就自然的留下。。。你要好好的爱他们。。。为什么我拥有的是那么多？我有的真的太多了。。希望神赐我一刻怜悯的心。。然我能赐福人群。。赐我仁爱，然我好好爱那些软弱的。。赐我刚强壮但的心。。不怕困苦。。。

GONE THROUGH TODAY...

YEAH..FINALLY..

ALTHOUGH TODAY A BIT..ERM..NOT REALLY A GOOD GOOD DAY BUT I STILL GONE THROUGH IT....

EVERYTHING SEEMS NOT SMOOTH TODAY.....

HAHAHA..MAYBE I STARTED THE DAY WITH CUP OF MILK INSTEAD OF COFFEE...

DUNNO WHY, JUST FELT LIKE DRINKING MILK THIS MORNING...

I FEEL SLEEPY FOR THE WHOLE MORNING.....

CAN'T CONCENTRATE IN CLASS.....

JUST LOOKING AT THE UNDER THE UMBRELLA MUSIC SHEET FOR THE WHOLE MORNING......

PASSED UP PTPTN FORM...FORM GOT REJECTED...MY FAULT, BECAUSE I FORGOT TO BUY THE STAMP HASIL...IT COST ME 10 RINGGIT EACH AND 50 CENT FOR EXTRA CHARGE....REALLY A LOT...

THEN I WENT FOR NAP...IT HAS BEE AN AGE I DIN TOOK TAKE NAP..BUT SLEPT THIS AFTER NOON....

I LATE FOR CLASS....SWEAT...

THE WORST PART....

I GOT AN ULCER IN MOUTH....SHOULD BE ON THE LEFT SITE OF THE TONGUE...IT IS REALLY A TORTURE....BUT GOOD TOO..NO NEED TO EAT..BUT I SEEMS TO BE VERY VERY HUNGRY....I PUT A BIT OF SALT ON IT...AND IT IS VERY VERY PAINFUL..AT LAST I KNOW WHAT PEOPLE MEANS BY 在伤口撒盐。。。原来是那么痛的。。。。哈哈哈。。。

BUT I CAN STILL COPE WITH IT....BUAHAHAHA...

ALTHOUGH TODAY NOT REALLY WELL.. BUT I AM STILL THE SAME YESTERDAY,TODAY AND TOMORROW....

我爱你。。I LOVE YOU....

我爱你，三个字你说得出口吗？

说了，你真的爱了吗？

爱了，你真的珍惜吗？

珍惜，你真的要永远吗？

永远，永远是多远呢？

天涯海角吗？

东南西北吗？

上高山下湖海吗？

还是有爱的存在的那一刻？

如果不爱了，那是伤害吗？

伤害，是痛吗？

眼泪流过脸颊吗？

回忆在控制心情吗？

对方的笑容在脑海里删不掉吗？

要忘也忘不了吗？

忘不了那曾经我爱你？

我爱你，这三个字就是那么的有能力，它可以让你拥有永远也能让你受到伤害。。。

那你要轻易说爱吗？许下的承诺就是欠下的债。。

爱不是口头上的承诺，而是行动上的表达。。

让我爱你带来永远而不是你的眼泪。。。

3 THINGS I WANT IN LIFE....

THERE IS 3 THINGS I WANT IN MY LIFE....

FAITH...信

HOPE....望

LOVE.....爱

ONLY FAITH..I HAVE TRUST IN MYSELF, IN PEOPLE AND DO EVERYTHING IN A TRUSTWORTHY WAY. ALTHOUGH HAVING DOUBT, DOUBT FROM PEOPLE OR BY PEOPLE...I STILL WILL HAVE FAITH TO DO THE BEST. JUST TO GIVE THE BEST AND BELIEVE...

WITH HOPE, I MOVE...WITH THE FAITH I HAVE, I BELIEVE....WITH HOPE I KNOW I CAN DO IT...HOPE FOR THE BEST FROM MYSELF...HOPE THERE IS CHANGES IN MYSELF TO BE BETTER..THERE IS NO PERFECTION BUT THERE IS HOPE...HOPE BRINGS ACTION AND HOPE BRINGS HOPE AND MIRACLES...TOMORROW IS A HOPE...

THE GREATEST AMONG THIS THREE IS LOVE, LOVE OVERCOME EVERYTHING..LOVE OVERCOME HATRED, FEAR, JEALOUSY AND PROUD....LOVE IS PATIENT, KIND, TRUST AND DOES NOT BOAST...HOW BEAUTIFUL LOVE IS...LOVE IS NOT ABOUT RECEIVING ONLY BUT IT IS ABOUT GIVING...WHY LOVE REPRESENTED BY A HEART SHAPE? BECAUSE IT ALL STARTED FROM OUR HEART...LOVE WITH ALL OUR HEART,OUR MIND AND OUR SOUL...

我是我吗？

NAOMI LEE WAN NING , ARE YOU WHO YOU ARE....?

林婉宁， 你是你自己吗？

我真的很想好好的回答我自己这个问题。每一次我告诉人我会烹饪，我会烤饼和糕点，他人都会用一个很可疑的眼神看着我便对我说：‘‘你真的会吗，看不出。’’这到底什么意识?我真的看起来什么都不会吗?没关系，我知道我会就可以了。今天我的屋友叫我帮她切木瓜，她说我真的切得很好，他还说我不像是会。

人人都觉的我有很强的性格,我记得我的领袖告诉我我有一个领袖的性格，我有信心，信实，和带领的恩赐。不过为什么，我都觉得我很软弱？我有一朋友告诉我 ，他的妈妈对我影响非常深因为他妈妈觉得我说话很有信心，不过我为什么都觉得我说话没有能力呢？

真不知道自己是怎样的人。。。

I REALIZED...

I DISCOVERED AT LEAST I AM A BIT BETTER.....

WHEN PEOPLE GUIDED ME TODAY,ALTHOUGH I DUN REALLY LIKE IT BECAUSE I THINK HE IS TOO CHOOSY WHERE I THINK WHAT I DO IT IS RIGHT....

BUT I STILL DID TILL HE SAID OK AND I REALIZED I DUN REALLY GET ANGRY OR IRRITATED...

AND LATER ON SOMETHING COMES INTO MY MIND...

I REMEMBERED DR.KEVIN SAID THIS,'TO BE A GOOD SHEPHERD,YOU HAVE TO BE A GOOD SHEEP'...

I SHOULD BE A GOOD FOLLOWER...THEN ONLY I CAN BE A LEADER...

BUT WHEN THE OTHER MEMBER STAND AT MY POSITION,

SHE GOT FRUSTRATED AND SHE SWEAR AT THE GUY USING THE WORD F**K,

THAT MOMENT,I REALIZED AT LEAST I DID BETTER AND HANDLE THIS SITUATION BETTER...

AT LEAST I HAVE ONE OF THE FRUIT OF SPIRIT NOW, THE PATIENCE

傘下

傘下　

詞 : 十 一 郎 曲 : 張 宇　

曾经一起撑着一把伞走过雨天，

可能那时的我们都想永远地走下去，

那是的手牵得那么直接，紧握着怕失去，

多么希望每天都是雨天，如果在这伞下的是你。

這場雨 會不會下不完
這一刻 最好能更緩慢
有些話就像 撐不開的傘
明明想靠近對方 卻出現一種阻擋
讓心慌張
你有我 沒有過的嚮往
我才會 一路苦苦追趕
我只有過往 卻沒有遠方
遲遲不放的癡狂 怎會在多年以後
變成這樣
我們在傘下如此執著凝望
愛與割捨來回碰撞
想牽手走不同的方向 是綑綁
我們在傘下準備失去對方
帶著了解 微笑和淚光

我會祝福你 傘外的世界 有一片蔚藍

一天一天的过去，发现雨天也不再来了，那在伞下的甜蜜，也不再一样了，

大家要走的方向不同，不过只有一把伞，

该时候是放手了，

想对你说的话，想给的温柔，就如这把撐不開的傘

既然不能像当初，就要准备失去对方。。。。
如今，一个人行，撑着伞走过雨天，就想起拥有过的甜蜜，

撑着伞走过雨天就如我对你的反应。。也代表着我现在的心情。。。

THE WORLD TODAY...

I JUST READ A BOOK FROM JOHN C.MAXWELL....
THIS SENTENCE ANSWERED MY DOUBTS ABOUT THE WORLD TODAY....
I may not able to change the world around me, but i can change the way i see the world within me

I SEE ALMOST EVERYTHING AS UNRIGHTEOUSNESS...
NOT DARE TO MISTAKES...AND KEEP GOD'S WORDS IN MY HEART SO THAT I DO NOT SIN AGAINST HIM...
WHEN I WAS SO DOWN ONLY GOD ALONE I SEEK...
HIS WORDS REMINDED ME AND LIFT ME UP AGAIN...
THOUSAND OF QUESTION I ASKED BUT NONE OF THEM ANSWERED...
OR I COULDN'T GET THE ANSWER I WANT...
AND ONLY JESUS IS THE ANSWER FOR THE WORLD TODAY...
SUDDENLY THE SONG THAT SUNDAY SCHOOL KIDS SING PLAYED IN MY MIND...

''JESUS IS THE ANSWER FOR THE WORLD TODAY,
ABOVE HIM THERE'S NO OTHER,JESUS IS THE WAY''

STARTING FROM TODAY I MIGHT NOT WANT TO SEE THE WORLD IN A SUCH A WAY,
I SHOULD SEE THAT GOD'S HAS HIS OWN PURPOSE CREATING THIS WORLD,
AND I JUST DO WHAT I CAN DO AND LET GOD DID THOSE I CAN'T....
我只要向着标杆直跑。。永不向后看。。。

就是这么突然。。

今天听到电视剧的女主角说：“我们分手吧，因为我不爱你了。”

听到这句，我就这么的突然想到我曾经对一个人说过。。

想起我真的觉得很抱歉。。

对不起，我知道你是看不到这一篇。。。

不是我不爱你或我根本就没爱过你。。。

而是我觉得放弃你会是对你最好你对待。。。

我们在一起也是那么的突然。。。

你的好，我很明白。。

我知道，我可以当你的女朋友的那一刻，我对你的伤害就开始了。。

不是我不爱你，是我不能。。。

我们根本就是两个世界的人。。。

你真的不是对的人。。。

你没有发觉每一次都是你在承诺吗？

我根本就没有许下任何承诺。。因为我不希望承诺成为我对你的债。。。

我没有办法还。。。

你说没关系我不爱你。。我知道你是很伤心。。不过现在不是很好吗？

真的希望你能找到真正的属于你世界的人。。

我记得有一次，我领袖的男朋友问我。。。

为什么你跟默默人没有在一起。。

他很好的一个男生。。。

又好看，又帅。。。

我记得我很诚实的回答他。。因为他不是神喜欢的。。

都过去一年多了。。也希望你找到你爱的。。

至于我。。。我还是会等候那对的人。。等不到的一天。。

我还是会一个人走在神的之旨意里。。。

我不会再让任何人受伤害。。

YUM YUMM YUMMY....

I SLEPT UNTIL ALMOST 12....

THEN MY NATHANIEL JUST SAT AT THE SOFA WHILE I WAS SLEEPING BESIDE THERE...A

CTUALLY I WOKE UP NINE SOMETHING BUT FALL ASLEEP A FEW MINUTES LATER...RAINING OUTSIDE..AND I GUESS HE IS HUNGRY...

BUT NICSON AND NASH WENT TO CHURCH...

SO I ASK NATHANIEL WHAT HE WANT TO EAT..

I PLANNED TO COOK THEIR LUNCH BUT I SLEEP TILL SO LATE AND I HAVENT BUY ANYTHING YET...I ASKED HIM WHETHER HE WANT TO EAT SPAGHETTI ,

HE

SAID OK...SO I COOKED FOR HIM..

WHILE I AM COOKING, NIC AND NASH WERE HOME..

NIC SAY HE DUN REALLY LIKE SPAGHETTI..

I KNOW HE DUN LIKE..BUT IT WAS NASH AND NIEL FAVORITE...

AND OUR HOUSE FULL OF DIFFERENT TYPE OF SPAGHETTI SAUCE....

AND SOUP....

AND WE ARE BEEF LOVER...SO I ADD IN SOME GROUND BEEF..

I GROU

DED IT MYSELF...HAHAHA

AND COME OUT....

THIS

GLAD TO OWN IT...

I BOUGHT A FEW BOOKS TODAY..

JUST TO ENHANCE MYSELF..

HAHAHAHA...

WHEN I HOLD THE BOOKS ON HAND...MY FACE DRAW A SMILE..

ACTUALLY FEW MORE BOOKS I WANT TO HAVE...BUT...T.T........NEVER MIND LA...

OWN IT SLOWLY....READING DAY IS COMING..BUAHAHAHAHA

4 BOOKS BY JOHN C. MAXWELL

POWER OF ATTITUDE AND LEADERSHIP

DAILY READER.....

I AM GOING TO MAKE DIFFERENCE AFTER FINISHED THIS BOOK

SHENG FEI'S BIG BIG DAY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH WONG,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU..

WISH YOU ALL THE BEST IN COMING DAYS..AND CHEERS...

SOME PICTURE TO KEEP AS MEMORY.....HAHAHA....

PLACE WE MAKAN BESAR

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JENNY, OUR MAN, QIAN MIN

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